Out with the old, in with the new

The nature in all its beauty. 

Year 2018 was very intensive and felt very heavy for me at times. Last year we had a problem with our plumbing so we have not been living at home for almost four months now. Living at our Forenom apartment has really made us appreciate home, and what it means to have a safe haven to return to every day and night. Last year was also very heavy for me relationship wise and at the beginning of this year a relationship ended that has been a big part of our lives for many years already. At the same time I am also changing jobs so there has been a lot of clearing out the old and inviting in the new.

"Discover yourself. Otherwise, you will become the opinions of those who don't know themselves."

At times I feel very confused and lonely but at the same time I know that this is the exact path that I am supposed to take. I sometimes feel like I am so overly tired that I don't know how to do it all but then the next day it usually feels easier and I find more clarity and ease in everything again. I also find that I am slowly discovering myself and truly being honest to who I am and to my real reason of living on this earth. I feel like I am finding my Dharma (Dharma, is a Hindu, Buddhist and yogic concept that refers to the idea of a law, or principle, governing the universe. For an individual to live out their dharma is for them to act in accordance with this law. In Buddhism, it is said that acting in this way is the path to enlightenment. The implication of dharma is that there is a right way for each person to carry out their life. Dharma is closely related to the concepts of duty and service to others, or seva. It has no single-word Western translation, which sometimes makes it a difficult concept for Westerners to grasp. One close way of translation however, is "right way of living". - yogapedia.com)

Kuva: Mikko Pennanen 

During the past few years I have been through a lot of emotions and energies and tonight I experienced my first Cacao ceremony with an amazing group of people. I went to see a fortune teller in Sydney in November and she told me that my current job is dead (which it was) and that I need to find my own group of people, my own community (which I feel that I am finding more and more). The more I listen, the more I start to flow with life and the more the things that are meant to find me seem to come to me without effort. It is almost like this wonderful game where you can't wait what surprise awaits around the corner. I have also learned that the surprise can also be something not so pleasant but it usually still stirs you in the right direction. We just need to learn to listen. 

Can't wait to kick it off with this team in March.

Last weekend was so amazing with a wonderful kick-off with my new team that I will enter in March, a fantastic birthday celebration of our dear friend and some fantastic time spent at the stables. When the youngsters were cantering full speed around the field and they called me granny, I felt so truly happy. There is just so much love to give and receive if we are ready to open up to it. That is really what life is all about. I feel so grateful for so much at the moment. Thank you!

Celebrating our Dear Friend Anna.

This painting I took home with me from Anna. Can't wait to hang it up on the wall. 

Jack has been enjoying himself at the countryside with my parents all weekend. 

"This being human is a Guest House. 

Every morning a new arrival. 

A joy, a depression, a meanness, 

Some momentary awareness comes 

As an unexpected visitor. 

Welcome and entertain them all! 

Even if they're a crowd of sorrows, 

Who violently sweep your house

Empty of its furniture.

Still treat each guest honourably,

He may be clearing you out for some new delight."

- Rumi